Sitting and watching my dreams single handedly come true is pretty amazing...............................

Last year was an incredible year for me. I accomplished one of my hearts desires which was to publish a book and began the ministry that God had placed in my heart over 20 years ago.  Those decisions required me to step out on faith.  This year, is going to be even more incredible. As I prepare for the book to become a stage play, and in the infancy stages of book number 2, my heart is filled with gratitude. I am simply in awe of all the exiting things that are before me.

There are more exiting things in the works that I am not at liberty to share but this I know for sure. In order to get something you have never gotten before you have to do something you have never done. So this year is the year I am going to walk on water. I am going to allow myself to trust the hand of God and hold on to Him and go where He leads. Everything God has promised me is coming to pass. Delay does not mean denial. Every promise will be fulfilled. Everything the enemy has stolen or held up is being released. Everything Satan has stolen, he has to restore seven fold. It is non-negotiable. He has to pay it back. PAY DAY is at hand!


I want to encourage you to believe in yourself and know that nothing is impossible in God. Make 2010 your year. We are co-laborers in Christ. He will do His part but we have to do ours. Have faith. Dream. Believe. Soar. Achieve. But this thing is key. In order to move forward you have to let go off the past. It's hurts, disappointments, and any unforgiveness. Unforgiveness will rob you of authentic peace and nothing you will do will yield your desired results because God turns a deaf ear to an unforgiving heart.

So let whatever it is go so you can move on in victory! 2010 make it your year. Hopefully, I will see you when you get there!

I want to extend a very MERRY CHRISTMAS to my virtual family. May love, peace, goodness, joy and the Love of the Father abound.
May you embrace the very precious gift that He has given us all. The Gift of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. HE is the reason for the season. Eat good, play hard, love harder, kiss, hug, embrace. Fall out in the floor full of laughter, run around the house after your children, gaze into your partner's eyes and ENJOY................................the moment. Tomorrow is not promised. All we have is right now.


I am LOVING my right now!

For the first time in a very long time I am experiencing increase and overflow. I was in Macy's today, buying Hannah two lamb fur coats (If Mommy is rocking fur, the Princess has to rock fur) and when I swiped my debit card, I pulled out my checkbook to record the entry and I stopped as I reminded myself that I have more than enough. God has exceeded my needs and my expectations. I closed my checkbook and hit several more departments before I left the store. Hannah was in tow, smiling brightly as she held on to her Macy's bags from her stroller (LOL).

All I can say is GOD IS GOOD. I know what it is like to have to weather financial storms and have setbacks. I know what it is like to have to make tough decisions but I have learned that God is able. King David said "I have never seen the righteous forsaken or his seed begging bread" and because I am the righteousness of God neither one of this things have occurred.  I have soooooooooooo many testimonies about God's provision and miracle working Hand, about a two years ago I started a "Miracle Journal". It is there were I have recorded all the supernatural and amazing things God has done for me.

This time of year, I get very reflective. I sit back and evaluate my life. My ups, downs, accomplishments, defeats, highs and lows and as I am doing so now, I have concluded that my life is good! Every thing I have done and been through has helped shape and mold the woman that I am. I am not proud of everything I have done but I am proud of who I am.

It is easy to get caught up in regret and play the role of victim when life serves you what you have sowed and it is retribution time. It is easy to have a pity party when the consequences of your actions slap you in the face and you are forced to altar your course. I have made plenty of perceived mistakes. I have made some bad decisions. I have lapsed in judgment (I am far from perfect)  but the BIBLE says that the steps of a righteous man are ordered of God. I am righteous not because of myself or my works (that is a joke) but because of Christ Jesus, His blood and the Father's mercy. So because I am deemed righteous through salvation, I lay claim to this scripture and can be in absolute peace as I journey. My steps are ordered. Where I go is ordered. My path is pre-set.....so God is not surprised about my revelations along the way. I may be shocked but He is not. So this holiday season, as I prepare for 2010...I celebrate where I have been because it is the platform, the foundation for where I am going. 2009 was the year of birthing, 2010 is my year of promise. So much of what the Father has promised me is already in fruition...I can see the buds on the tree, the promise is at hand. So be encouraged and know that it is in the valley that God prepares, shapes, reveals and deals. He wants to expose what is in our hearts so we can be delivered and set free. He will not allow us to take certain things and certain people into the promise. He has to allow life to shake us so we can let it go.......but the choice is ultimately ours.

This year I have been overwhelmed with lessons.....and they continue but one thing is for sure.. I know the path that I am on is destined and ordained for me. My steps are ordered. My lessons are tailor designed.....so I do not have one regret. Nope, not one. This is my journey and it is one hell of a ride.....and despite it all I am enjoying every moment of it!

WELL PEOPLE IT IS OFFICIAL, MY BOOK THE OTHER WOMAN, LESSONS LEARNED WILL BE FEATURED ON A STAGE NEAR YOU SOON!!!!! YES, YES, YES!

THE PLAY IS ON THE WAY AND THE FIRST SHOW TENTATIVELY WILL BE FALL/WINTER OF 2010. OH  MY GOD, GOD IS GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM SO EXITED I CAN HARDLY STAND IT. SO MUCH TO DO....ASSEMBLING THE TEAM, AUDITIONS, CASTINGS, ETC.
I AM AMAZED AT HOW GOD WILL SHUT THE MOUTHS OF YOUR HATERS AND CRACK THEIR HEADS AND FACES! HE WILL PREPARE A TABLE BEFORE YOU IN THE PRESENCE OF YOUR ENEMIES. HE WILL BLESS YOU AND BLESS YOU AND GIVE THEM MORE TO TALK ABOUT. BUT GUESS WHAT Y'ALL, THROUGH IT ALL I AM NOT BITTER. MY HEART IS NOT ANGRY, I AM NOT MOVED. I AM LITERALLY LAUGHING IN SATAN'S FACE. I AM A VICTOR IN CHRIST.......MY LIFE LESSONS ARE LESSONS FOR THE WORLD!


THE OTHER WOMAN....HITTING A STAGE NEAR YOU SOON. FIRST SHOW OF COURSE WILL BE HERE IN THE ATL....WHERE IT ALL HAPPENED. THE MAN, THE AFFAIR, THE BABY, THE DRAMA, THE MESS AND THE MESSAGE!



TICKLED RED!

What does Christmas mean to you? With all the holiday hype, it is easy for the message of Christmas to get lost. Christmas means Christ was, he was here and is. Many, would like to make it a day about gifts, and Santa, and parties and big celebrations and all of that is well and good but we cannot forget that because of the birth of Christ, we have a Savior that has redeemed us from sin and that is truly why we should celebrate!

I cannot image the mess my life would be without Jesus. His love, His grace, His forgiveness. His mercy. His provision. His kindness. His second chances. His gentleness. I have received the best gift ever, the gift of God's LOVE, now that is something to celebrate!!!!

I am so thankful and grateful today and everyday. Our norms have changed, our times are changing or economy is doing it's own thing but I have learned that everything around me can change, shift and literally turn upside down. The world can lose it's collective mind but God is strong, He is steady, He is consistent, He is still very much in control....He has not surrendered His throne.

So I am thankful today because they that TRUST in the Lord will not be shaken and we will not be moved! I can dance with five cent to my name or five grand in my hand, I can sing with a freezer full of food or just pb&j, I will worship when all the bills are paid and when all of them are past due. My circumstances do not MOVE the hand of God, faith does!!!!! When I concentrate on the Father, everything else is everything else......

I am most thankful for my Worship! Nothing is better, nothing is sweeter, nothing is more fulfilling.....slow dancing with the Master....my, my, my!

Since I wrote my memoir, I am often asked about my daughter's father. How I feel about him, would I do anything differently and if I have any regrets. To everyone's dismay, my answers to those questions are surprising. I do not have any animosity against David. I wish him well (he needs it)  and I do not regret anything. Our story was our story and I am sure he sees it differently than I do. The relationship ended like all relationships end that displease God....ours thankfully ended sooner than later. I would hate for karma to catch up with me 20 years from now. I took my spanking from the All Mighty and moved on. Thank you JESUS!!!!!!!!!

Everything that one would perceive to be a negative in my life actually happened for my good. It is amazing how God will take ruins and turn it into something brilliant. The lows in my life created opportunities for me to seek God in fashions unimagined. I knew I  was a tough cookie but after the last ten years,  I see I am a bad chick! I can take the blows of life and still stand...because of God's grace. Life is too short to be holding on to who did what, who said what, who did not do this, he lied about that, she this, who really cares and who gives a damn? I don't. Unforgiveness is like cancer in the morrow of the bone. It will eat you up from the inside out, I have forgiven. I have let go. I been moved on!

I can launch a successful business and SELF publish a book in a recession without any help from anyone other than my Lord, My God. God birthed ministry out of a mess and that is just hilarious! I have soared in the face of adversity and it is all because of God's unmerited grace....his undeserving favor! I really have tapped into the power within and AMAZING things are happening in my life everyday.  I am literally holding on to my seat...................

I am in awe of the wonder and power of the human spirit. God really has deposited into us everything we need to achieve.  Bend, don't break.  Fall but get the heck up. Cry but then stop! Never ever believe you cannot make it, you cannot do it,  you need so and so. You only need God. With God, all things are possible. He is the ROCK on which I stand!


What foundation are you standing on?

Last week I was booked to speak at a conference in Mississippi and I  was exited about it and was ready to go. Unfortunately, a situation came up with my daughter and on top of the situation she was not feeling well. I had a decision to make which was to find someone else to care for her and nurse her will Mommy was away teaching or stay home. Well,  God reminded me of what matters most and what was to come first. His instruction was my first ministry (all ministry means is service, I do not know why this word freaks people out so.....anywho) is to my family....my children. Their needs must come first. He reminded me that if I wanted to be a jet set all around the world personality, then I should have decided to be fried, died and tied! Children are not to be sacrificed for ministry or work of any kind. So I put away my lecture notes, the BAD suit I had planned to wear and all my books and study material.

"But Lord, I want to go" I whined. "Not this time, daughter. Not this time."
So the next  morning when I was supposed to be teaching, praying, interceding, Hannah was in my bed with a runny nose and her head on my chest. She looked at me with those big ole eyes and said "Mommy...." that's all she said was "Mommy". I got really into her face so I could feel her breath and assured her that I would always be there to wipe her runny noses, put band aids on her boo-boo's and hear her first words.

I accepted the fact that I am in the season of my life where I will not be able to accept every invitation and go to every engagement. I have to prioritize and do what matters most so I have committed to only one engagement a month.....that is all I can do. And because I was obedient and did not leave my child God gave me a wonderful gift.  A person that all ready helps care for Hannah will be my weekend Nanny....she can stay at my home and even travel with me. SAY WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God u never cease to amaze me. Oh, the sweet rewards of learning to trust Him.

Trust Him. Go when he says go, stay when he says stay. Just do what HE says....He never ever fails and He is just waiting to bless your obedience.