The writing of my memoir was a very detailed and exposing process. It forced me to take a long look at myself in the mirror. I embraced the wonderful things about me and I am challenged to change the things that I need to change. Evil when present in our lives, hides. He hides behind emotions, feelings, confusion, depression and anger. He simply uses our temples to promote his agenda whatever that may be and often leaves us holding the bag. That bag may be lasciviousness, greed, a habit of some sort, confused sexuality, or heck just pick a sin. Any sin. The devil does not like light and he does not like exposure and I decided to expose him in my life in a powerful way. My first step towards freedom was admittance. I refuse to live in darkness and I refuse to allow anyone to lord my past all over me. So I tell it, yell it from the roof top and I can still hold my head up with grace and dignity because it is not about where I have been or what I have done, but where I am going. No one will ever have that upper hand on me . I can tell where I been, how long I was there, why I was there and all the freak that may have gone on while I was there. I can tell about the times I have been out of character, the times I have said things just to be mean and the times I meant everything I said. I am the first to be admit I am not perfect and if you catch me on the wrong day, I will show you just how imperfect I can be.
I have also learned that you can go through the gutter, be at a really low place and not wallow there. I have walked through the valley with a power suit on. I have been down and still held up my head. I have learned to go through the storms of my life with grace and go through the fire and not smell like smoke. I have seen with my own two eyes the keeping power of God. Like the three hebrew boys, you can be in a den with lions and God will not only sustain you but walk you out of the den untouched by harm! That is truly something to be exited about. No weapon formed against me will prosper. NO WEAPON!!!!! So whatever the devil is aiming at you today know that it will not prosper. An ex-husband, an ex anything, a crazy boss, the slumbering economy or whatever, it will not prosper. It will not accomplish or succeed in its mission. That is the heritage we (Christians) have in the Lord. Victory. Absolute victory and because of that victory I can laugh and sing and be free because I know it is a fixed fight. My God has already won the battle. It is already DONE!!!!!!!