Time to be still and go into my secret place. I need to rest. I need to hear. My energy needs to be replenished so I can do what needs to be done next. Cause what's next requires everything I got and I plan to give it everything I got.

I sent out a request for original music for consideration for a project I am working on. For the most part, I received some amazing compositions......really raw undiscovered talent and I am very pleased because I have more than enough music now.

But I did receive some music that was shocking! Now, I am not a teeny bopper, good and grown but this music was absolutely off the chain. I kept wondering who would listen to this? Where would you listen to it? Thank GOD, My kids were not in ear shot as the music player on my computer started to play. I mean right out the gate it was triple x!


I cannot even repeat or type the lyrics it was just to much. Not just one song....all of it. I could not help but think where have we gone wrong? What happened to our sacred self respect and decency? When did men start talking to women in this manner? When did sacred lovers start hoeing each other out?

I am literally outdone. I could not listen to all of it. It was just so filthy.....I had to go and take a bath.

So my little lesson learned was to guard my heart. Guard my eyes and my ears and not to allow trash in my temple!

About a week ago, Hannah and I planted some flower seeds in three flower pots. I put them of the front porch and we promised to water them daily. Every day, when we walked past the pots, Hannah would check to see if the seeds had started to grow.

I have never seriously planted anything in my life  in seed form and had no idea how long it would take to see anything growing. Two days ago, as we walked by she said "Mommy it's growing......see it?" I peeped into the pots and saw nothing but dirt. No evidence of anything growing. Hannah on the other hand declared in her 3 year old know it all tone, that she sawsomething.

Well wouldn't you know, the very NEXT day, green was above the soil. The flowers are growing! When I showed Hannah she said, "See, Mommy I told you." She knew we had planted seeds and she was expecting something to grow. She saw with faith eyes the flowers forming before they actually did. I am the queen of faith. I believe all things are possible and refuse to accept anything other than what it is supposed to be but this little conversation with my daughter reminded me that I was not seeing our flowers with faith eyes. I needed to get on board. I was slipping!

I was waiting on a physical manifestation as opposed to seeing the beautiful blooms before the beautiful bloom.

Thank you Hannah Alexandria Perry for reminding Mommy of exactly what faith is. Plant a seed. Expect the harvest. Receive the harvest. Period! See the harvest when there is only dirt in the ground. Feel the softness of the petals before they bloom. Smell the fragrance before any is produced.

I got it baby girl.
You are right. You told me.

Ummmm is the place I am in right now and it feels so good. When I sit back and take my life in, my response is ummm. You know the ummm you make when you are enjoying a bowl of your favorite icecream or eating a piece of triple chocolate cake layed in a rum sauce and whipped cream? Or the ummmm you make when you are experiencing a heated stone massage with just the right pressure?

My life is good. I have moved out of struggle into peace. I like the woman that I am. I like the mother that I am. I like to partner that I am. I understand my relationship with God and I am at peace with my conflicts, my humanity. I understand Who He is to Me and what He is to me. I rest in the safety of His arms.

Make no mistake about it, I am not suggesting that my life is cookie cutter perfect and that adversity does not exist, I am simply saying that whatever comes my way, it comes to pass. I am more than a conquerer and that is good enough for me.

So enjoy your day and get the "ummmm" of your life on. It feels wonderful!

Relishing in the moment. Enjoying the sun....set. Watching the birds settle into their home for the evening. Feeling the warm air, sippin something sweet.  Admiring the beauty of the hour.....not wanting it to end. Inhale.......no exhale. No, not yet.